At first read this passage is difficult to understand.  The grumbling Jewish leaders are disputing Jesus’ statement that the “Living Bread” is His flesh.  Jesus responds by describing the benefits of nourishment from feeding on His flesh and blood, the Living Bread.

     When Jesus died His flesh and blood was sacrificed for the salvation of His people.  Believing in Him for salvation and nourishing the soul with spiritual food gives spiritual health to the soul.  Unless Jesus is your source of sustenance you are spiritually dead.

     What is Jesus telling you about Himself and how should you respond?

     Glorify and enjoy God as you feast on the Living Bread.

HAVE A BLESSED DAY!

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Următorul curs, cel de sociologie a avut un impact mult, mult mai puternic asupra mea decât mă așteptam. Nu mi-am închipuit niciodată că mă voi simți atât de atrasă de acest subiect cum mă simt acum după doar trei ore de curs, și alea numai introductive! Am avut un noroc chior cum spunem noi! La ce mă refer? Mă refer la faptul că sunt de ceva timp aici și până acum nu am avut parte decât de oameni snobi, de trufie, mândrie, neglijență, indiferență...să mai înșirui sau v-ați "prins" de idee??

Pentru prima dată în tot acest timp, am avut norocul să întâlnesc pe cineva care îmi împărtășește, cel puțin pentru acum, ideile, gândurile, opiniile! Acest cineva este tocmai profesoara de sociologie! Am pășit cu emoție în amfiteatrul imens unde avea să se petreacă "evenimentul", proiectoare, reflectoare, 400 de studenți...!!!WOW! Mă simțeam miiicăăă și neimportantă în marea aia de studenți! Mi-am găsit un loc pe la mijlocul sălii, am zis nici prea în față, nici prea în spate să nu stau! Nu ne-am așezat bine că profesoara a insistat să ne ridicăm și să facem un peregrinaj până la scena unde se afla dânsa, pentru a lua fiecare câte un set de pagini cu indicațiile pentru curs! Ce de oameni! A durat vreo 20 minute până ne-am "reinstalat" în scaune! Și de curiozitate am început să citesc pe nerăsuflate ce așternuse profa' pe hârtiile acelea! Prima impresie: profă nenorocită, cu reguli draconice, cu zero-toleranță la "omiterea" temelor și la "chiulul" de la examene! Am înlemnit gândindu-mă că nu mai "trec eu clasa"!:) Dar, nu avea să fie deloc așa, deoarece din momentul în care a început să vorbească despre domeniu, reguli, despre ea ca profesor, am realizat cu toții că avea să fie unul dintre cele mai interesante și plăcute cursuri poate! Cu toate că am fost reticentă cu privire la a rămâne până la urmă cu această specializare, deoarece intenționasem să mi-o schimb, spre business, oricum altceva, acum nu mai sunt așa de sigură că vreau să fac schimbări de tipul acesta! Am văzut că îmi place subiectul și chiar neașteptat de mult! Profesoara a avut mare dreptate când a dat un fel de explicație pentru faptul că nu prea dorește nimeni să se îndrepte spre sociologie, această explicație suna cam așa: "dacă întrebi pe cineva ce face psihologul, îți răspunde fără niciun dubiu, dacă îl întrebi ce face economistul, la fel, dar dacă îl întrebi ce este un sociolog și cu ce se ocupă habar nu are ce să răspundă!" Cu toate acestea după cum spunea ea, dacă nu ar fi sociologi, societatea noastră nu ar putea evolua, în niciun caz în bine... La fraza aceasta, deja mă mânca limba ca să zic așa, îmi venea să fac o glumă, dar nu am îndrăznit datorită celor 400 de studenți care mă înconjurau! Ce vroiam sa îi spun? Păi a întrebat de ce trăim tot într-un haos total, dacă sunt sociologii aici să aibă grijă de bunăstarea societății?! Și eu vroiam numai să o întreb dacă din toata treaba asta ar trebui să deduc că nu sunt destul de mulți sociologi???:))

Oricum, per total, impresia a fost una foarte plăcută! Un campus imens, cu tot felul de secțiuni și clădiri, au până și propria lor televiziune, o ditamai clădirea-turn! Superb, restaurante, cafenele, librării, bibliotecă, teren de hochei(da ați citit bine!), piscină, jdemii de parcări... ai toate resursele la care te poți gândi și mult mai multe pe deasupra!

În concluzie, sunt încântată, extrem de încântată!  O mare diferență față de "ale noastre" a fost să văd studenții cum "pierd timpul" cu nepăsare! Mobilu' e folosit cu precădere în clasă, eventual cu profa lângă tine, se recomandă tastarea mesajelor cu sonor și "reply-ul" rapid! Nu se recomandă participarea la ore fără a servi cafeaua și/sau sucul de rigoare așezați leneș în scaun ,  eventual cu piciorul pe scaunul din față!:) Este o atmosferă foarte relaxată, profesorii țin să facă un rezumat al lecției predate pe care îl publică mai apoi pe site-ul facultății și care poate fi accesat doar de studenții înregistrați în cursul respectiv!

Ce să mai spun, deocamdată sunt mulțumită, nu mai sunt stresată, absolut deloc, nu mai am emoții, doar un elan din ăsta nebun care îmi dă o poftă nebună de învățat!:) Lucru cam rar în zilele noastre!

Cam atât aș avea de spus despre primele impresii ca studentă aici, rămâne de de văzut și analizat ce va urma...

The full article can be found at Science News.

Involved -- these students are active in extra-curricular activities. They are part of the student council or an officer/member of an org. They are supposedly the cream of the crop and the popular campus personalities. These are students who would rather sacrifice a class than miss an org or council meeting. There was one instance when one of students used as an excuse his involvement in different campus organizations for not doing an assignment that I gave 1 week in advance (we meet once a week only). This student has stopped coming to class since then.

Working-class -- majority of the students in PUPSPE are working students. They are either employed in McDonald's or Jollibee (or even in other fastfood and department stores). In class, they are either late, absent, or the first to get out of the class and leave the school premises.

Between the 2 types, I am more forgiving to the working class if they miss a class for as long as they meet my requirements.

If you are a teacher/student, what type of student do you have?/are you?

     There are three groups of people interacting with Jesus in John 6; His disciples, the hungry crowd, and the self righteous Jewish leaders.   In this passage the leaders are very irritated at Jesus’ claim of being the Son of God.  Jesus responds by telling them that unless God changes their understanding they will never believe in Him and enjoy the benefits of the Living Bread.

     What is Jesus telling you about Himself and how should you respond?

     Enjoy the benefits of the Living Bread as you glorify God today.

HAVE A BLESSED DAY!

I remember a time when I felt that time passed conspicuously slow and how hard it was to accept my fathers theory of time + age = accelaration. In the mind of a 13 year old it just didn't make much sense how time could elapse any different depending on what age one was.

Now, years later, I understand the notion of time beng elusive. What I wonder now is exactly how fast does time pass for a man nearing his 70's when I (at 26) already feels there aren't enough hours to the day?! Hopefully at his age I've learnt the art of multi-tasking. ;) 

A man nearing his 70's...

It's every childs fear isn't it? The thought of their parents mortality. My father's much too young at heart and mind to be of that age! I truly can't picture a world without any of them (or just one of them)... and until I name their age as such, I don't. Ignorance is bliss. ;)

Back to the point though, I've estimated that on weekdays I've about an hour to do with as I please. With hobbies like laying puzzles that doesn't give me very much time for enjoyment. Especially when I have to clean up after myself to make sure the cats don't get to them. And this without a job or extra curriculars, as I thought I'd stay away from it this year (which btw, is going to be my economical downfall).

I agree with the Bear that as a student one never gets the free time one gets with a steady job. Once the lectures are over, we have to deal with the group works, the reading up, the studying for the next exam. (Then again, being the workaholic I am, I'll probably find a way to make sure work takes over more aspects of my life tin the future as well.) I guess I just have to learn to find the time, just like one does with the training.

As you can probably tell, I've never learnt the art of cramming every activity between heaven an hell into the 24 hours we have each day like some people have the ability of doing. They're either heavy-dosage drug users or they're such social butterflies that they enjoy the thought of doing things, constantly, with others. For me, I need to be doing things, constantly, but only about 25% of it with others. None the less, I've always been jealous of these talented little artísts of life, but I guess it's a part of who one is, what one's comfortable with. In the end, I really enjoy the feeling of me-time. It's the time of day I get to "varva ner" as they say in swedish, and not loose myself in the kaos of being liked by other, of being fun, enjoyable and spunky. (But then again, during about two months of the year I need people so I don't loose myself in the kaos of not liking myself, of paranoia, angst, and depression. So I'm not completely autonomous. ;)

Sweet kisses to all and I leave you this rainy Saturday with this photo to put a smile on your faces. :)

I swear we didn't place him there! :)

The fashion industry is raging in India as any country in the world. More and more students are taking up this highly creative and outrageous career. Outrageous because there is a lot of differentiating once has to weave in with his or her product. There is no space for a me-too and plagiarism is thrashed.

So those who are highly creative, know how to arm twist fabrics to get the best cut and work for hours on end, get into the industry. While some make it to the top, others get drowned in this highly competitive market. As one has to work under a name before setting up their own label most of the times candidates never really get to set out on their own.

But for those with a will there are platforms like the IFW - the Lakhme sponsored Indian Fashion Week. Where along with the big wigs of the industry novices too get to line up their stuff on the ramp. NIFT - National Institute of Fashion Technology in India is one of the leading Fashion Institutes where one gets to dabble with fabrics, styles and textures. You can walk in as a novice and walks out as a professional. Most of the times campus recruitment soaks in most of the graduating students. Students get a chance to work for Indian labels or International ones. Once you are selected your growth is in your hands.

Students can specialize or work for apparel for men, women or children. All these markets are huge and have an incessant appetite for more. Besides the a

At first, I wasn't sure how I'm going to pay for it. Student loans are a racket, especially for law school, and the local law school doesn't have much in the way of scholarships and grants. There are 83 units; each costs $750; the costs continue to increase every year.

Then it hit me: Teach.

Teaching is perfect for some future law student eyeing the five-year law program at the local school. The best part speaks for itself: teaching brings automatic pay raises typically after every 15 graduate units, typically up to a maximum of 60 units or higher. Further reasoning follows:

After just two years, when a teacher gets established and gets a routine going in the classroom, there needn't be very much prep time spent outside the normal work day. After the same, concurrent two years of at least adequate service, that same teacher becomes tenured --- you'd have to have sex with a student to get fired after that, and sometimes not even then.

After tenure and routine set in, more time is available in the weeknights and summers for law classes from that special five-year program. Even before tenure, all summers are wide open for the sake of teaching or taking summer school and, after taking these few units, teachers get yet another automatic pay raise. It's a lucrative cycle for a young, frugal, single male with custody of zero children. The pay raises won't completely cover law school, but they'll make a sizeable dent.

I'm set to snag a position as soon as I'd want, mostly because my school photography company sends me to schools four days a week. On its dime, I can very easily start making connections throughout the better part of three counties, spreading the word with a well-placed business card --- one highly qualified social science intern is all too ready for hire.

It'll be hit and miss, mostly miss. I don't mind --- I need just one hit, one home run, and I'm perfectly satisfied to stick around my company until I make that fluke. Then, I'm set to re-enter the preliminary stage of a profession famed for militant unions and infamous for high burnout.

And why not? I'm not all that tired of teaching. After a year of training in front of a classroom and just as long theoretically learning about teaching as a credential student, I had only just begun to start. I would have continued it, too, if it hadn't been for my meddling hubris.

I have all the time I need, and I'm in just the right position to make just the right move. My CSET scores are still good for a few more years, and, chances are, my existing units will more-or-less transfer. From here, it's a matter of timing.

If nothing else, yet one more route to fame, fortune and the presidency of these United States just uncovered itself. Sweet.

ZMIANA KLAS

Miedzy innymi postanowilam nie zdawac zadnych egzaminow <graduation> i zmienic klasy, ktore mi nie odpowiadaja, na inne. Wiazalo sie to z oplatami - klasy ktore wybralam wymagaly oplat ok $15 kazda. Na rzecz materialow (glina, kredki, papier).

Tak wiec za jednym razem pozbylam sie US Government, Health i Computer Programming, z czego sie bardzo ciesze. Nowe klasy wniosly wiele pozytywnego i nie musze nudzic sie na lekcjach, ktore mnie nie interesuja.

ART 2 - Po prostu robie to, co lubie. Zadan jest duzo i trzeba sie spieszyc, zeby oddac prace w terminie. Wlasciwie nie ma znaczenia JAK rysujesz. Wazne, ze rysujesz ;)

POTTERY - Nie wiedzialam, czego sie spodziewac, ale uznalam, ze klasa jest wystarczajaco fun, zeby dolaczyc. Na poczatek kazdy dostal spora bryle gliny i trzyma ja w szafce. Pierwsze zadanie to stworzyc marracco. Czyli instrument, pozniej na kole bedziemy - lepic to zle slowo - garnki xD Atmosfera jest sympatyczna, a czas leci szybciej niz powinien.

COMMERCIAL ART - Ta klase wzielam w ciemno. Nie zostala zadna inna do wyboru ;) Polaczenie ART i komputera. Najpierw proby rysowania czcionek, inicjalow. Pozniej krotki wstep do Adobe Illustrator. Na kolejna lekcje musimy narysowac swoje imie czcionka 'metaliczna'. Nie wiem jaki w tym sens, ale niezla zabawa.

Jeszcze raz musze podkreslic, ze zmiana wyszla na lepsze. Robie to, co lubie. Gdyby tak wygladala szkola w Polsce... z przyjemnoscia wciaz bym w naszym kraju siedziala ;)

MUSICAL

To kolejny punkt, o ktorym warto wspomniec. Po raz kolejny rzucilo mi sie w oczy profesjonalne podejscie do wszystkiego. Przesluchania do szkolnego musicalu Once upon a mattress (na podstawie animowanego filmu - polecam, polecam) trwalo lacznie trzy dni. Kazdy, kto chcial sprobowac swoich sil - wpisywal sie na wywieszona na korytarzu liste (zupelnie, jak na filmach, prawda?). Nastepnym krokiem bylo wypelnienie formularza, wazna rzecza byl stempel od kogos z Main Office oraz wpisanie dni, w ktore NIE mozna sie pojawiac na ewentualnych probach (z powodu pracy, treningow, etc.) . Do formularza dolaczono dwie piosenki do wyboru oraz dwa monologii. W srode i czwartek trwaly przesluchania do rol. Zalapalam sie w ostatniej chwili, wiec moj monolog czytalam zupelnie improwizujac. Pomijajac kilka slow, ktorych wymowe przekrecilam, nie wypadlam najgorzej ;) W piatek krotki dance audition. Instruktorka przedstawila kilka podstawowych ruchow tanca Spanish Panic (z filmu). W ciagu 15 minut kazdy kandydat musial sie ich nauczyc. Nastepnie w piecio-osobowych grupach wchodzilismy do audytorium i tanczylismy. Tutaj nie poszlo mi najlepiej. Pogubilam sie w krokach. Ale nadrabialam mina ;p Przedstawienie planowane jest na listopad i zapowiada sie ciekawe. Oczywiscie odbedzie sie poza szkola, w godzinach wieczornych i oczywiscie - przyjdzie cala szkola. A bilety kosztuja $8. Uwielbiam ten kraj. Do osob, ktore przeszly przesluchanie pozytywnie - nauczyciele maja zadzwonic w przyszlym tygodniu.

FOOTBALL GAME

Zaluje, ze nie bede mogla napisac dokladnej relacji. Niestety nie mialam okazji pojechac na mecz. Host rodzina miala napiety program na ten dzien (pies sie rozchorowal ...). Ale mimo wszystko mam o czym pisac. Od 3 dni ludzie w szkole nie mowili o niczym innym, jak o pierwszej grze. W trakcie Algebry dostalismy komunikat, by wlaczyc projektor. I pojawil sie film. Dyrektor, samorzad i wiele innych osob zapraszalo na mecz, podkreslajac, ze beda darmowe hot dogi ;) To jest dla nich bardzo wazne - dopingowac swoja druzyne, cheerlederki, uczestniczyc w szkolnych wydarzeniach. Jak juz jestesmy przy Algebrze, musze wspomniec, ze nie tylko film nam przeszkodzil w rozwiazywaniu rownan. Dwie osoby weszly i rozdaly kartki. Chodzilo o wybor przewodniczacej samorzadu. Moze nia byc tylko dziewczyna Senior. Wstrzymalam sie od glosu - nie znam zadnej Senior, ktora sie nadaje na przewodniczaca ;) Kontynuujac lekcje Algebry: Mr.Denton czytal wyniki testu z poprzedniej lekcje. Mialam drugi wynik w klasie 97/100. Wszyscy sie na mnie dziwnie patrzyli...

LUNCH

Odpowiem wreszcie na wasze pytanie - co jest na lunch i jak to wszystko wyglada?

Lunch kosztuje $2 dziennie. Kafeteria (Cafeterie) jest dosc duza sala, wieksza od znanych nam stolowek. W zaleznosci od tego, co chcesz zjesc, kierujesz sie w odpowiednie miejsce. Z reguly do wyboru sa trzy takowe. Salatki/Pizza/Danie. Wybaczcie, lecz nie opisze co wchodzi w sklad dwoch ostatnich. Jako wegetarianka bazuje na salatkach. Coz, wiec bierzesz tacke, sztucce, plastikowe miseczki lub talerzyk i nakladasz sobie co chcesz. Do salatki wlasciwie mozna wrzucic wszystko. Oliwki, pomidory, ogorki, ser, szynke, grzanki, etc. Do tego sosy. Zawsze dodatkowo jest jakis deser - ciastko. Mleko kakaowe oraz sok. Ananas, pieczywo, twarozek. Mozesz tez wziac ziemniaka xD Generalnie lunch jest chyba najlepsza pora w calym rozkladzie dnia. Mnostwo wolnego czasu - okolo 30 min. Zdecydowanie lubie lunch.

NEW STUDENT BREAKFAST

W czwartek na English otrzymalam notke, zeby w piatek o 8.30 zjawic sie na New Student Breakfast. Brzmialo smiesznie. Nie wiedzialam o co chodzi. W trakcie Pottery wyszlam wiec i podazylam do Lecture Hall. Kazali mi wybrac kolor markera, napisac swoje imie na naklejce i przykleic do tego jakies zwierzatka <rowniez naklejki>. Bylam co najmniej zdezorientowana. Ale wszyscy to wszyscy. W sumie to bylo smieszne. Jednak po chwili juz nie mialam watpliwosci, ze ta godzina bedzie przyjemna. Donnuts, banany, kakao, sok... Dowiedzialam sie tez, po co to wszystko. W sali zebrali sie wszyscy uczniowie zarejestrowani w tym roku. Lacznie z exchange studentami. Celem bylo poznanie sie i ... i tyle. Najpierw podzielilismy sie na Juniors, Sophomores, Seniors. Rozmawialismy. Pozniej na tych, ktorzy maja naklejona zabke, na tych ktorzy maja imie napisane czerwonym markerem, na tych ktorzy lubia komedie, i tak dalej. Za kazdym razem mozna bylo poznac kogos nowego, zamienic z nimi pare zdan. Z opisu moze brzmiec troche, jak w przedszkolu. Moze i tak bylo. Ale byla tez zabawa i fajnie spedzony czas. Wliczajac te 3 zjedzone paczki :)

Chyba tyle wystarczy na dzis. Zanudzilabym was wieksza iloscia informacji. Zdjec w szkole nie udalo sie zrobic, nadrobie to zdjeciami innymi, lecz dopiero wkrotce. Z tego tygodnia zebralo mi sie kilka 'pamiatek', ktore postanowilam umiescic pozniej w Scrapbook z pobytu. Miedzy innymi moj numerek z przesluchania, wizytowka z imieniem i zabka, notka o new student breakfast etc.

(W przyszlym tygodniu planuje znalezc club judo w okolicy, cos trzeba robic po lekcjach ! )

The past few days i spent lying in my bed thinking very hard. Between dreams and blackness my mind found time to think of my future in all its respects. Where will my gender go? What impact will that have? Where will my degree get me? What can i do? It is really a time to define who i am so that i can live out my life as that person.

I see myself as a cloud of uncertainty. It would be egotistical of me to say that i am a cloud of potential, but the potential can be for both bad and good. I branch out and try things too see if my cloud will fit that mold. I feel that i need to settle into a shape before i can properly live out anything from study to relationships. I fail at everything if i am not a real shape. Clouds just drift unhappily through life till they break and fall on someone.

After an inordinate amount of reading and talking to those that know, i have come to several conclusions about my situation. I do not feel the same way about myself as most post-op women that i know. They knew all the way along. They had no doubts. They didn't hide their femininity, they just thought it was the norm. When i was young i was very aware that i had to hide what i felt for fear of ridicule. They didn't feel the purges and lapses that i get so often. I one day i want to be a woman so much that it hurts. Another day i will feel so uncertain about the whole thing that i will just sit and cry.

I cannot hope to transition until i either sort this out, or accept that i will never full be a woman and that i should be a male. I can explore the boundaries of my gender, but from the male side of the Great Divide.

I also know that the female feelings inside of me will never die even though they are not as strong as a fully trans woman's. In response to this i will feel compelled to crossdress from time to time but not as a horny transvestite. I have no desire to sit in a bra and panties and jerk off to porn. I am still a woman; just not full time. When presenting as Alice i will still expect to be treated as a woman even though we all know that it is a temporary arrangement.

I have taken a liking to the term 'gender illusionist'. Being a totally normal male but having the ability to transform into a woman at the drop of a hat. A convincing one at that. I do not wish to be in the closet. If i am not to be a full time woman, i will not hide what i do. It is a part of me and always will be.

I am not dashing my hopes of a full transition, i am just laying a safety net for myself should i fall. The idea of getting rid of my shame between my legs is still rather appealing. The difference between me and girls that have transitioned, is that i don't mind being a boy; i would just prefer being a girl.

I always have the future to transition should i decide that it is appropriate. I am saddened that the older i get, the less time i will have spent as who i am. The older i get, the less successful my transition will be, but i can't live as a cloud. I will try and enjoy my life as described above, but should it fail i have the option to transition later. Make the most of now so that i don't regret my time as a boy if i decide to change.

Well, sorry for such a long post. I got carried away. Just a quick thanks to people on here that comment and encourage me to write more. Lynn Jones for her advice and sharp mind. Alison for her balanced arguments and breadth of knowledge. Snowdropexplodes for always being there reading. And everyone else for reading about me. This blog keeps me going.

xx

Anonymous

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Professor Ohara

'Yeah, whatever."

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Helaas hebben de dingen die je post ook zo zijn weerslag op lezers - je kunt niet alles posten, zoals ik al gauw ontdekte. Inmiddels voel ik niet meer zo de neiging om bepaalde websites af te zeiken en heb ik nu al tijden een normaal weblog waar ik normale dingen op zet en bijna nooit iemand beledig.

Maar nu is er een nieuwe periode in m'n leven aangebroken: Ik ga geneeskunde studeren. Een nieuwe omgeving, nieuwe docenten en nieuwe medestudenten - en dus een nieuw onderwerp om over te bloggen. Geloof me, dit gaat een ontzettend zeikblog worden, dus als je daar niet tegen kunt, kun je beter een ander geneeskundeblog opzoeken. Ik zal mettertijd wel gaan linken naar mede-bloggers dus stof tot lezen genoeg. Desondanks zal ik naast de zeikposts ook de leuke dingen vertellen, zoals een goed blog betaamd. Ik licht de belangrijke dingen uit mijn belevenissen in de hoop dat men er wat aan heeft - oftewel, om mijn hart te luchten en geheel anoniem alles te zeggen wat ik wil. Anonimiteit is op zijn tijd ook wel fijn...

In elk geval, de titel. Geneeskundeblog en geneeskundestudent.nl waren allebei al bezet, tja, je moet toch vooruit denken in deze tijd, en toen verscheen deze titel in mijn hoofd. Pathologic basis of disease. Het is het mooiste en dikste boek wat ik bezit: een enorm boek met een harde kaft met allerlei 'vieze' plaatjes van diverse ziekten. Hyperinteressant maar niet altijd even leuk om te bekijken. Wie kijkt er nu graag naar gezwellen van huidlagen? Waarom het toch zo'n mooi boek is? De titel, de kaft, de algehele opmaak en de omgang maken het tot een indrukwekkend geheel. Het hele idee - een bureau vol met te dikke boeken, en dan zó'n dikke pil erbij...

Of dit blog ook ooit zo zal worden, indrukwekkend, misschien niet altijd even leuk maar wel interessant, valt nog te bezien. Ik weet in elk geval waar ik heen wil... ;).

Nog even een toelichting op de categorieën: PBOD is gewoon de afkorting van de titel van dit blog. In die categorie zul je alle blog-gerelateerde posts en andere dingen die nergens bij kunnen vinden. Alle posts onder Pathologie zijn de zeikposts en alle posts onder 'Immunologie' zijn de positieve posts. Vanwaar immunologie? Ik kan nergens het tegenovergestelde van pathologie vinden (dus studie van gezonde weefsels / leer van het niet-lijden) en eigenlijk moeten de positieve ervaringen je immuun maken voor de negatieve - natuurlijk zijn ze dan niet leuk, maar je weet in elk geval waar je het voor doet. Dus.

Succes met lezen.

Störst behållning fann jag i presidierapporten där Moa beskriver mailskörden; "Jag trodde att jag var van vid många mail, det var jag inte. [...] på två dar har över två hundra mail att hantera [...]". Hon får väl höra av sig och boka in brother-akademin och ta en kurs i mailhantering, jag ligger stadigt på ungefär 400 mail om dagen, när all spam är borträknad.

One thing I'd like to share is how I've been able to see many parts of the world, and I've been able to do it practically for free. Most people who've lived long enough know about airline credit cards, but it's probably been a while since they've actually looked at what's being offered in recent times. Now, first let me admit upfront that I'm not really the type of person to advocate opening a credit card just to get a stupid t-shirt, silly key fob, or anything frivolous like that. But, sometimes these deals are just too great to pass up. You'd be doing yourself a real disservice if you did not at least consider at least some of them.

Consider this. Common industry standard to get a free roundtrip plane ticket in airline frequent flyer programs is to collect 25,000 miles. Most airline credit cards give you 1 or 2 miles per dollar charged. This would mean that you'd normally have to charge between $12,500-$25,000 just to get your ticket. For those who charge just about everything to their card, this may easily come after two years or so, but for those of us who are credit card debt averse, we can't see ourselves possibily racking up charges like that. But, that's OK. Most airline credit cards are now so eager to get new customers that they are practically giving miles away to entice you.

An example is United Airlines' credit cards which are offered by Chase. I recommend opening either a United Mileage Plus Visa Signature card, which will give you 25,000 miles upon your first purchase, or a United Mileage Plus Gold Class Visa card, which will give you 20,000 miles for your first purchase. Print out a copy of the offer page, just in case there is a screw up on their part, so you have proof and can still get the miles. The miles normally take 2-3 months to post to your United Airlines Mileage Plus account.

And you don't have to charge much to get the miles. There is no minimum purchase amount. I charged just $1.50 buying something on eBay, kept my credit card statement as proof of the transaction, and the miles still arrived in my frequent flier account. Now, Chase does have some versions of this offer still floating out there where you have to charge $250 to get the miles, but if you read the fine print, a balance transfer check counts as a "purchase". So, when I'm up against that, I simply write myself a balance transfer check for $250 and immediately deposit it in my bank account to be paid right back. Sure, there's a 3% transaction fee, but that's still only $7.50 when you look at it. You're getting $600-$1000 in frequent flyer miles in exchange.

Yeah, these cards come with stiff annual fees. But, that's OK, since they are waiving the annual fee for you the first year. Just remember to call in and close your card . You've got about a whole year to do so (I'd call it 10 months). But, if you're a student or if you still like using the card to get miles, then I recommend against closing the card. You can instead call customer service and have them downgrade your card to one without an annual fee. Chase also has the United College Plus Visa card, which offers added perks for students, one of which is 10,000 miles for college graduation. They will give you the miles for each and every time you graduate. For example, I have one friend who went to community college and got his associate's degree, he went on to get his bachelor's and is now finishing his masters. So, that's 10,000 miles for each time he graduated plus his initial bonus of 25,000 on the Visa Signature card, bringing his minimum total to 65,000 miles, which is enough to fly domestically first class and have 5,000 miles left over, or to Europe or Asia in a coach seat and still have 10,000 miles left over. Just look at this chart for the kind of travel awards that are available.

Still want more miles? Or, are you now already out of college or decided for some reason not to go there? So far, do you see yourself getting 20,000 to 25,000 miles at the most with their card? That's still OK. You can still get to Europe, Asia, or Hawaii. How? Open a business version of the credit card. You don't have to own a big company or anything like that, and it's still possible. Use your Social Security number as the business' Taxpayer Identification number and mark on your application that you are a sole proprietor. If you've ever sold something on eBay before or plan to in the future, congrats! You are now officially a retailer with a business line of credit! This is perfectly legit and the IRS and Chase OK with it. And, you don't have to have any revenue. I put "$0" down in the revenue box and still got approved.  Think about it. Business start-ups in their beginning stages typically have no revenue at all.

So, 65,000 miles plus 20,000 mile... That comes down to 85,000 miles, which is enough to go to Central Asia, Oceania or Africa. And to make things even better, United isn't the only airline that is offering such great deals. Just about every airline is. You can find out more about these types of deals by visiting FlyerTalk, which is perhaps one of the most useful travel websites I've found on the web.

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I don't even think the teacher could see me as I sat behind this beast. You should have seen the man when he stood up, I kid you not the man had to be 7 feet tall. On top of that very large man is a very large hairdo that poofs out at least half a foot. Way to go sir, you win the-most-obnoxious-view-blocker-without-wearing-a-stupid-hat-award.

Lately my study group asked me about my life in law school so far. This is what I said:

So far here are my impressions of my classes:

Real Estate Transactions: This is my favorite class by far. I'm such a nerd about it that I do extra reading, and I'm not generally bored or distracted when working on it. The class is basically a "how to be a good real estate lawyer" and I've already learned a lot. The professor is an attorney by day, and a professor by evening. She really knows her stuff. I feel like even though there are 30 people in the class I am getting one on one help.

Evidence: My professor is like Woody Allen, so that is funny. I actually enjoy the reading for this class, but I'm not as vigilant as I should be about actually going to class prepared. The professor prefers volunteers, so there is less incentive. The subject matter is easy to visualize, and so I find learning it comes quickly. The book we use is by Sklansky and it has a lot of problems in it. I don't like the problems as much, because sometimes I don't know the answer and I have to hope we get it in class.

Constitutional Law: If Professor Kleven taught this class I'd be happy. It seems to be more about philosophy than law. I find the class relatively easy but boring. It's really fun to talk about, but I find myself not overly interested. Most likely because we are not talking about issues that I'm personally interested. I'm all for talking about that stuff when it comes to gay rights, and so I just have to tell myself that I need to learn this stuff to be able to do what I want.

Wills, Trusts, and Estates: I hated this first week of this class. I don't do numbers, and I don't know anything about finance. So when he was talking about Tax Shelter blah blah I was completely confused. We have now moved on to more interesting things like "who is considered an heir" and I like that. The professor is from Tennessee and so he LOVES me since I went to Rhodes. We also bond over real estate title law issues. It's my least favorite class, but I still enjoy it. However, doing the reading is mind numbing. OH! and get this. So...he finally read his reviews from last semester. Apparently some students were upset he did not "cold call" students to brief. They said they wanted to speak in class, but were to shy. So they wished he would call on them. My first thought was "If you want to talk, do so. Judges aren't going to ask you if you have an objection to something!" anyway...the professor has decided to comply with the demands of last semester
and cold call on us. However, he said we are free to pass if we want. He won't make anyone talk.

School life:The transfer students are definitely bonding. We are all about getting to know one another. There is a pub people go to after Con. law and I went last night. It was fun. The students here really like to have fun. The 1L students all seem....happy. It's kind of creepy. I think by this time I was going kind of nuts, trying to do all the reading. It was also about this time that I said "Screw Crim Law" and never opened that book outside of class.
I won't say I miss my car. I do not. However, I do marvel at the fact that I can walk around and carry 50+ pounds of books all over New Jersey. It makes me feel good that I've not been using the state of the art gym at Rutgers as my running shoes are on a truck being delivered with the rest of the furniture this week. Speaking of the gym...all the boys at my school must live there. The eye candy is insane.